Parental Inadequacy, Redemption, and Future Grace

Well, the past year has been a whirlwind of changes. I got married, moved to a city in which I never thought I’d live, changed church campuses, and spent more time not blogging than I ever have since I started writing who knows how many years ago. Oh, and I became a father for the first time. Yes, it’s still a little surreal to say that, and a bit stranger to actually write it down. So, this is my son, Calvin Luke. He’s almost two weeks old, and I think that I can objectively say that he is the cutest baby I have ever seen. Every time I look at him my heart fills with joy and I can’t help but smile, which is a long way away from where my heart was just four years ago.
Continue reading

On Endings

I’ve never liked endings. Even when I was a little kid, or maybe especially then. Whether it be the end of a birthday party as a child, gospel goodbyes as an adult, or even the last Blue Collar Comedy Tour movie. Endings made and make me sad. I used to tell myself that it’s just part of life and that I’ve gotta develop thicker skin and not let it get to me so much. Today, though, I realized that there may be something deeper than just being sensitive to change or wanting to avoid reality. I believe it’s because deep down, before I knew how to express it, I knew that we are wired for eternity.
Continue reading

Reflections on the Old Testament, Changes, and the Middle East

There have been a lot of changes in my life recently. There are even more changes that seem to be looming overhead that may never even materialize. I met the woman who would become my wife about a year ago. We got married about seven months ago. Then in July we found out we’re going to be parents by April 2015. Parents! We were single a year ago, people!
Continue reading

Mark Driscoll, Acts 29, and Hope for Reconciliation

I don’t write much these days. I feel like I’ve said that every time I’ve written something over the past six months. It takes a lot of time and mental energy just to come up with writing topics, and even more time and energy to make sure they are gospel centered and God glorifying. But every once in a while, something happens that stirs my heart in a way that compels me to put pen to paper once again.
Continue reading

Soaking and Bathing

It’s been a while since I’ve spent time in this space. Part of the reason for this is adjusting to the changes that come with marriage. The changes of available time to read, study, and write. The changes of not really knowing what to write about, or what I should or shouldn’t write about when I wanted to write about marriage and its ups and downs. The changes in the state of my heart that led me to want to spend more time relaxing with my wife than doing the hard work of soul-searching, sin killing, and pursuing my own sanctification. The changes in not needing to lean on God the same way, but still blind to see how I needed to lean on Him differently.
Continue reading