In an effort to become more authentic in the blog, I’ve started doing something new, and joined Joy, a new writer I’ve come to know, in sharing about life: unmasked. I’m grateful for Joy’s allowing me to participate in this blog meme, and look forward to sharing some of my struggles, questions, and failures.
It’s easy to pour out words on a page. Words that talk of important concepts. Sovereignty, supremacy, missional, and complementarian. It’s easy to write about these things because it lets me look at something I already know, or something I believe Holy Spirit to have already shown me.
I don’t suffer from writer’s block here because I have so many topics from which to choose. So many concepts I’ve studied over and over again. So many passages of Scripture and books that I’ve spent years just soaking in. So many doctrines that allow me to throw a false flag as a banner, keeping people satisfied with my work while not pressing me to grow.
So many beliefs that keep Scripture at an arm’s length. Texts that speak the same message to my soul again and again. Texts with which I have become so familiar that they become the very thing they should not: ordinary.
They are texts that preach the gospel to my spirit and convict and encourage my wretched heart, yes. But because they have become so familiar they are not texts that cause me to see a new revelation of God and all of His glory. They are not texts that make me cry out with Isaiah “Woe is me! For I am lost; for I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts! (Isa. 6:5)”
They are not texts that leave me feeling with the new weight of being “undone” before God. They seem to not pierce my soul with the reality of my depravity followed by His amazing love and grace in redemption. I’ve become stagnant in my study of Scripture, leaving room for pride and deceit to grow. And this is when I truly become undone.
So, I’m taking this week off of blogging. Time to refocus and re-engage with the God of all Creation. With my Savior, my King.
Where have you become stagnant? Where do you need to take time off and just pursue Christ through studying Scripture and through prayer?